Monday, June 22, 2009

You go Michael Kors!

"She is so defensive that to some extend makes her very rude".



Michael Kors, Project Runaway judge.



It was project runway shown on the screen of my Tv. there were four contestants left..Kinley, a guy and 2 other girls. Notice how i only manage to remember one of them out of the four? u must be wondering..why is this Kinley so memorable to me...Well one thing for sure...she's the most attractive of all compared to the other three. Attractive...typically pretty..outspoken and problematic. Kinley somehow reminded me of myself back years ago...(minus the 'attractive-typically pretty-outspoken part okay..)always being the outcast of a group simply because of poor people skills that i pose. but that doesnt mean i'm unique than others, infact, i'm the perfect candidate for being a normal person. THAT, was not what i was proud of. THAT, was what i wish i could scrap off from my life.
As bitterness has always been my middle name, i was always bitter towards people and especailly to the ones i hold close to my heart. it's just funny how humans tend to hurt the ones we're close to, rather than the ones we just know a minute ago...and as a daughter, i was bad-mannered towards my mum for certain reasons. nothing good had ever come out of my mouth when it comes to my mum. i was alwasy disagreeing with her, heading the west instead of the east like what she'd always tell me. until at one point, i think she's had enough from me. she told it to me straight in the face about how a pessimist i was when with her; how rude i was when i always thought i was defending the truth; how ungrateful i became as the scalp on my head became more visible...and that made me realize how true those brutal words were. i was speechless at that. i never knew the 'evil-cinderella-step-mother' in me before this. it's true that i was always throwing back negative feedback at her, that i was monsterly rude by always answering her back in my attempt to defend myself...and i always thought i was right 24/7, no matter how horrifying the world ends because of me. Uh huh...i was self-centered, always thinking of getting what I WANT, what I NEED, what I SHOULD HAVE, and that made me a fatal eating flesh virus that slowly kills the body.
but that just freezed there and then, as i gradually continued to be the rude person i was from the beginning. until he broke down, and told me the truth again. the very truth i never, ever wanted to hear, especially from the man who popped the question to me. Yes, i hurt him with my blade-like words which stripped the dignity in him. THAT, was the last straw that made the boat most rocky and i realized i would lose this diamond if i dont turn over a new leaf soon. and that's how i became a 10 minute-fan of Michael Kors, simply because of the worthy statement he made so that people would have it as their healthy meal, chew and swallow it down slowly and digest it to nurish our weaken bodies.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

FatiGue..do i know you?

I feel sick...i feel sick..i feel like vomiting..UGHHHHH..i hate this!! my nose is putting on her running gear...I HATE IT WHEN I HAVE RUNNY NOSE...my throat feels like it's rearing big lumps of monsterish creatures that eat flesh..UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...