23/10/10
Today was the day we both really looked forward to...after the unsuccessful first IUI attempt, we were really hoping that this time around a miracle would happen and i'd finally be on my way to become a mummy.
I woke up extra early just to prepare myself physically, mentally and emotionally...our appointment with Dr. Zamri was at 9.30-10 am but at 9 or so he was still wrapped in his comforter... HUH!!When would he have time to jumpstart his "olyimpic team?!?"
I shook him hard enough to annoy him and sent him marching to have his shower. Assuming that he'd be aware that we were already running a lil late, I did not remind him to make it quick (which i should have) and he was in the bathroom for more than half an hour!!! (the sitting on the toilet bowl moment + the newspaper reading took forever!!).
Eventually we arrived after ten, which was not that bad considering the fact that I ( !!!! ) had to "lend a hand" in waking 'him' up...(heiiiaaaaah..)..
Uh huh..this was where we stored his "olympic team"
We had to wait a few mins as there was a couple before us...It was nerve wrecking for me..the thought of lying on the hospital bed with both my legs wide open for Dr Zamri to insert a few foreign objects in my V jay jay was really disturbing..plus, my first experience was an UNEASY and PAINFUL one too...really..
It wasn't long until Dr Zamri called us to go in to his lab to check out our potential "babies". Before doctors proceed with the IUI procedure, the sperms need to be washed. It's a process whereby the doctors would pick and choose the best one of all. We also had the chance to see the sperms under the microscope which was a really cool thing. You can really see if the sperms are actively moving or not.
I guess it wasnt our time to have a baby yet...coz all of his sperms were dead...yes...dead and did not wriggle a bit, at all...This was the second time this happened, but the first attempt wasn't that bad, at least there were 2 or so that were wriggling. I was crushed, but i think it affected him more coz he did not expect that to happen. Dr. Zamri advised us to proceed with IVF but if it's possible, we'd put IVF as our last option. It's my body you're talking about here...and as far as i know, IVF is quite dangerous for the mum-to-be as well as for the baby...What's more, is that I'm still young..i dont want my ovaries to be played with...Whatever it is, i think optioning for IVF is the biggest risk we'd ever take.
I really hope and pray that November would be the month for us. We've been trying for more than 2 years and i'm starting to feel lonely with only the 2 of us here...I know.. I know..everyone keeps telling me to enjoy the moment before the third company comes. Well..u know what..before my MIL comes over to stay with us, i have to make sure Diane Junior or Yupiter Junior is on their way...! Otherwise..it'll be a hair-pulling-moment when MIL's around!
